Friday, June 29, 2012

Quiet Destruction, Invisible Peace

My good friend Kitty is fighting cancer and is kicking its ass.  In the mean time though, challenges have been thrown her way back to back.  She made a comment today about how when a war is over, there are no more bombs going off, but when you look around there is a quiet destruction. I know just what she means.

It's like its quiet all around us while we sift through and pick up the broken pieces.  The problem with picking up shit that is broken, it that sometimes you get burned, sometimes you get cut.  Instead of picking up our old shit and trying to fix it, we should just leave it on the ground and not take it back!  I've recently had to do just that.  With myself and bad habits, ridding myself of negative people in my life, changing my own thought processes.

Last year, my husband and I discovered that we needed some fertility assistance.  I've been trying to get pregnant and that was hard for me to deal with at the time.  I wasted a lot of time asking God why and being angry about it.  It took me months to realize that I should be focusing on what we DO have and that is OPTIONS and EACH OTHER. I no longer am worried about the why, how and when.  I'm just enjoying the now.   And it took practice to get here.

What opened my eyes was the war that happened close to home within months together, back to back... My oldest friend lost her husband in a motorcycle accident, my step-father passed away, my aunt died, a friend got cancer, another friend had a heart attack and I myself was riddled with stress hives and panic attacks.  I felt so weak in my spirit and I knew that I needed a serious change.

I just needed to feel peace again.  And I wanted to learn how to keep that peace even when the bombs are going off.  As I was sifting through the rubble of things that were happening to me and my loved ones, I paused before picking up the same habits and the same thoughts.  Instead I decided to take a meditation class at Harmony House Kuwait.  The class was 6 days over a three week period and was free of charge.  I was surprised to see multi-faith in attendance.  The focus wasn't religious, rather spiritual and soul consciousness was the focus.  So whatever your faith, you left the class a better Muslim, Hindu, Christian etc..

I highly recommend giving Harmony House Kuwait a try if you want some peaceful lessons in your life.

Thursday, June 14, 2012

Out of My Cocoon

Yes!  That's right,  I'm back.  I took a break from blogging and sharing my life.  I'm still living in Kuwait, but with a whole new perspective.  Last year, it seemed to me that I was attracting all sorts of negative experiences here in the Middle East.  Sex crazed neighbors, getting lost after my GPS went out on my first driving experience, rude locals... and so on.

I needed to change what I was experiencing by expecting to see the good in Kuwait---and in people.  And since then, I've had some truly enlightening and positive experiences here.  From doing makeup for a member of the royal family, to learning how to bring myself back to my peaceful nature with meditation.

 Although I'm aware that there are some things that are truly wrong and unfair here; there are some beautiful things and people as well. Just like most of the world.

 I really took the time to allow God to work on my heart and open my mind to the brighter side...and that is what inspires me to write again.  If I have a negative experience, I'm sure  I'll share it, but I'm looking forward to sharing things that me smile.